I am a 45 year old female with a master's degree and am a certified Grant Writer and fundraiser.
I have been misdiagnosed for over 10 yrs and finally got a big piece of the puzzle that answers alot, but can not find any help in South Dakota. I have been given prescriptions after prescriptions for 10 years and I only have 1 kidney and adrenal gland. There were so many prescriptions that my system now does not metabolize most prescriptions and the ones it does, is a challenge to figure out.
I have no support and actually just the opposite. I grew up in a alcoholic abusive, neglectful, etc family and when I became ill as an adult and the doctors were not trying to get to the root of the problem, my family and daughter they enmeshed into it, started threatening me and abusing me in many ways. They have made me homeless about 5 times and I currently am staying in a motel that takes $800 of my disability check and the rest goes to car insurance. The family knows this and uses that as a tactic to abuse me.
I am actually scared for the first time in my life, even after all I have been through in my childhood including being dragged down 4 flights of stairs and beat with a hammer, my birth mom and dad and brother all tried to choke me to death. They also threatened that they have dirty legal connections that will do whatever they want them to do to me. And they have tried many things.
I must be a horrible person right? Well I am the only one that is not an alcoholic, abusive, gambler, etc. I don't have a clue why they want to hurt me so badly.
I was finally diagnosed with complex ptsd and am an adult child of alcoholics and abusive family. However there is no help in South Dakota and I have researched for so long that it actually triggers things when I try to find information and help. I have no one else that is helping me find a place to heal.
The big part I am scared of right now is my depression has set in again after being 10 plus years without it. And I know I need to find the right help for treatment and away from my family. When I am weak, due to the complexity of my complex ptsd, that is when they get me. So I isolate or try to hide.
Oh I didn't tell you they are millionaires! Figures and get away with many things including illegal and according to the American Disabilities Act, what they have and are doing to me is abuse and they can get in a lot of trouble. But my main focus and goal is to move where I can get the help I need to heal first. I also have seizures, mostly because of stress. I do have a service dog thank goodness. I don't know what or where I would be otherwise, but I don't feel I am giving him what he deserves.
Sorry a lot of information, and that is only a small portion of all of it.
So a big question is how do I get the help I need to heal for my ptsd? Also how do I go about building a healthy diverse network? I need to talk on the phone sometimes, I don't do a lot on a computer because yhey are always hacking in. But I need to find a safe place, where there is supprt of different things and I have run out of idea's.
Can anyone help me?