I went through lots of changes in my life recently. I was living in another country and suddenly I found myself back to my home city in Brazil. Years ago, I passed through lots of anxiety issues, in a context of bad food and exercises habit and over working. When I was living abroad (london) I had only one job and good eating habits and practising exercises. my mental health was really good there.
Now, I have 4 jobs (4!), and somehow, I grew accustomed to this crazy life. From Monday to Friday I'm OK! I feel good jumping from work to work (I'm teacher, lecturer and researcher). When the weekend starts, I have lot of anxiety related symptoms.
It's like I need the structure of the week days and my mind doesn't cope with the lack of structure of the Weekends.
I feel really bad from Friday night to Monday morning. My vision is blur, my heart rate is higher and so is my blood pressure, I sweat (hands and feet), dry mouth, short breath... every weekend the same.
This one is special, is holiday tomorrow...
I tried to make a schedule on the weekends but it doesn't work... only to know it is weekend, I get anxious...
What to do?
I love to work a lot. But my mind doesn't cope with free time... I love stay free watching TV and playing video game, or watching series or going out with my friends... but all this anxiety doesn't allow me