I havent blogged for a while, so thought I would.............
I Still struggle with weekends.............. Its just making sure that I keep myself busy so that I dont feel lonely.................
But slowly coming to terms with the end of my relationship and starting to get my life back on track at home.............. these things take time when you've given up everything for someone..........
I hope everyone has a nice weekend
Ker xx
Hey Anne as you well know I'm not find of weekends at the moment. So here's to both of us enjoying our weekend even if I'm working Sunday. 
Its gota change at some point eh!! I hope you have a good night...... and leave the phone at home!!
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To late but I won't be drinking a lot if at all. So there will be no druken texts.
Aww bless you.............you just have to remember you did nothing wrong. If he doesnt pull his head out of his backside, then he really aint worth it and he has lost a good thing................it isnt a nice feeling when you have given them your all. Its got to make us stronger, something positive has to come out of all this mess.xx
Will..................................hope you are ok. xx
Yeah I know............. I am starting to get on with things..... made some decisions regarding work which is good....... going back to doing manicures and pedicures and make-up too......... dont wana do the full beauty thing, its too much stuff to carry around,but one day per week mobile will be good.... had a couple of clients ask me if I would, so I thought blow it...... I earn good money when I have a full day....... so feel quite positive about that today, like Im getting my self back!!
And I hope that the sadness that I feel will go too............
How you doing?? xx
ps....One thing is for sure. , I will never give up my independance for anyone again...... being able to look after yourself is a thing I'll never let slip again.... I just thought he was different!!
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I am ok.................like you i am never gona do what i have done for him ever again for no one. The wall is back up and stronger than ever.....................glad to hear you are getting on with things..............even better that you have people asking for you to work on them:-)............says it all when they are crying out for you................the sadness has to go away. I know its awful but karma will do the rest. Sounds bitter i know, but hey thats life x
Yeah I know it has to change............my heads been up my arse and I have forgotten I have good options within myself that Ive worked hard for........ When youre not thinking properly you forget what you have............
slowly this is coming back............ I text him cos he'd sent my last box of stuff back, and as much as I was sad, I couldnt bare feeling like we hated each other..... so I got to say some things I needed him to know, and I feel better for it............
I felt sad, but I also know 100% there is no going back and what im feeling now is just grief and I know it will pass............ I may be a little more wary in the future, but this cant be a bad thing......
The fact that he can just go dating to replace me when he says he still loves me, tells me a lot abuot him, and then when I add his crazy family into the equation I just know however sad I feel, I coulndt go back to that....... He said I cant believe you could love me and walk away, and I said but all ive done is what youve done, youre saying yhou love me but cant move, thats what ive said, its funny how he thinks its ok for him to say that but not me!! Dowhh............... Selfish or what??
Anyway less of me, what about you??
You should come over to Hul sometime and have a night out with us!!
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Some people stick their heads in the sand and pretend things are not happening. They blame everyone else around them.......until they take responsibility they will never change. If he can't see that his Mum has played a big part in things..............then what can you do.
Wary is not such a bad thing. I could never be so trusting. You give someone your all and they treat you like crap, it isnt worth doing......................no wonder his ex's did what they did. Some of it was not deserved, i am not as heartless as them, but it does make you wonder what went on and why
You are on with the night out in Hull. Will defo hold you to it. I wana start living again, and not putting my life on hold for people. Live to the max. xx
You also must come down to Leeds and have a blast here x
Well were all going to the races Weds 29th May evening, will be good!! Dont know how youre fixed but will be fun.......??
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Will let you kno thanks....................maybe a bit pushed with that as its rest week after nights. My Dad is taking my Mum abroad for a surprise 50th wedding anniversary on the Friday. She doesnt know yet. If not then defo do something soon. xx
No Probs..... it is only a couple of weeks I know, so not much notice.......Just let me know when youre free and we'll sort something!!
I just want to make the most of the summer,,,,, and get out and have fun again..... without a man!!
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yeh so do i. Find myself again and have fun, focus on me. I will let you know. Looking forward to it. x
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My weekend...
Hard to believe doctors 
Having a really hard time. 
A hard world to live in
