fear of dying

[KatieRichie94]

I'm constantly worrying about something bad happening to myself. I think I'm going to have a ruptured brain aneurysm or something like cardiac arrest. I'm only 21 and I've had a bunch of medical test done for various things. I got an ekg, echiocardiogram for my heart. Then I got a ct scan and xray of my chest. I had the entire lung functioning panel done. I had the complete thyroid panel done. I just recently had an endoscopy and ultrasound of my gallbladder kidney and liver. I had the blood work done to test for autoimmune diseases. I am going to see a neurologist tomorrow and I'll probably get an mri done eventually of my brain. I have been having headaches for th3 past 3 weeks straight and it's hard to tell what's causing it. I got off of my birth control a week ago. It's like I feel energized for the first couple of hours upon waking and then I get fatigued. Then I'll wake up for an hour and get tired again. This anxiety cycle is vicious. I'm currently getting self hypnosis and speaking to a therapist weekly. I've been on a countless amount of medications and none of them have worked for me. I just want to be at ease in my mind. I have been worked up this way for the past year. I have struggled with depression and anxiety for about 8 years now. It got worse within the past year.

[Simon1a]

Hi Katie that's an impressive catalogue of tests so I would say health wise your very well covered and doing all the right things but when it comes to your anxiety and depression it's not so easy to diagnose and fix but again by recognising it seeing your doctor and trying the different medications and treatments available your doing all you can and keeping up the fight. Lots of people here are in the same boat as you are and there is no quick fix, but take courage from the people here who are fighting this battle with you and know from the many success stories here that it can be beaten and you are strong enough to keep on fighting. Your not alone Katie and there is always someone here to listen and who understands. Hope you feel better soon

[KatieRichie94 in reply to Simon1a]

That was a very nice reply. Yes I really enjoy this community. It makes you feel like you aren't alone. It takes years to overcome, but I believe one day something will take its place =)

[Hidden]

Not sure if we are the same person, I am the exact same way, along with getting way too many tests done.

[KatieRichie94 in reply to Hidden]

Have they all been okay?

[Hidden in reply to KatieRichie94]

Yep, every single one turned out average or above.

[KatieRichie94 in reply to Hidden]

I'm happy for you =)

[Hidden in reply to KatieRichie94]

Thanks, you too, have a good one.