At last!! Had a real proper appointment with my psychiatrist today and BREAKTHROUGH! He has questioned why I am on the meds I am on and has set up an action plan with me for regular sessions and reviews. I am having all my meds changed to ones that deal with anxiety not just blanket depression meds that are out dated! I feel so much better already, like a weight has been lifted from me. There is a light at the end of this and it won't have to consume me forever. It will be tough and I know there may be good and bad times but with the right support things may improve. Suddenly having the anxiety addressed rather than just the situation feels liberating.
Anxiety is still a debilitating condition that I have to live with but things are looking up.
I hope everyone else suffering can get the help them need. Take care. Hugs.