Trapped in my mind

I've been suffering from anxiety since last October and it started from being around friends who were smoking weed, which caused me to have my first panic attack. Since then I've had anxiety and was on propanolol for a while and taking therapy but I didn't feel like the cognitive theory was helping so stopped. My anxiety has now developed and isn't about specific situations or worries anymore. It's more about being aware of my own thoughts and feeling like I'm trapped in my own mind and cut off from the rest of the world mentally. I've stopped trying to explain it to my family because I don't want them to worry and am able to come across absolutely fine as if nothing's wrong but I feel like I'm going insane and am never going to be comfortable in my own mind again. Can ANYONE relate ??

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  • Yep I can. Have you seen a new doctor or counsellor?

  • I saw a doctor when it first started and got propanolol prescribed for general anxiety. Then the anxiety went (when the weed chemicals left my brain I guess) so I stopped the medication, then it came back and has never really left again. I haven't been back to the doctor because I feel the medication isn't what I need. I saw my university therapist but she was delving into my childhood and if I have family problems etc and relationship problems, which I felt was absolutely useless and was making me feel more helpless as she clearly didn't understand how Im suffering as I've never had family problems. Since then I've not done anything about it, luckily I'm able to talk to my boyfriend about it but even he doesn't COMPLETELY understand and I don't want to worry my parents anymore as I feel like worrying them will just make me worry more and get worse.

  • The only thing I can recommend is run and exercise. I know it's really hard, I've put my running shoes on and just given up before I left the house because anxiety is such a weird scary paralysing feeling. but running or working out really helps, at least try it x

  • Or you can go for 1 hour walks in the park, I cant excercise because it is stimulating my overworked heart, 6 weeks ago I was doing high intensity weights and had too much caffiene and stress and had my first massive panic attack afterwards on the tube, went to hospital but all tests were fine, still going to see cardiologist for 24 hour ecg.

  • Hi. Sounds like yr suffering from a generilised aniety disorder. Easy to get over if u approach things in the right way. First off you can choose how to feel about any situation. You have choice. Youll worry moreabout worring if u get my drift than anything specific. Hence locking u into anxiety. Read paul david and anxitey no more. Yr just extra sensitive but if u work with these feelings and stop fighting them they will start to ease. Promise. X

  • Ive played football for 8 years and only recently stopped this academic year because I just started university. I'm taking it back up this summer and going to continue playing again so hopefully this will help ease it. Thank you for the advice, Its so nice to talk to people who understand x

  • Are you smoking weed? I first started smoking weed when I was 15. For the first few years it was great. I never had a bad high. I would laugh so much get the munchies and really enjoy it. But after that I would get random panic/anxiety attacks while I was high. The good chill feelings had turned to crazy thoughts and I would work myself up thinking that I couldn't breathe or that my heart was beating fast. I think that it was time for me to stop. Maybe the bodys was of reacting and saying to quit. Or maybe it was the fact that I knew it was wrong. Or maybe the fact that I had no control over my mind or thoughts and I that alone would scare me.

  • I've only ever smoked it three times in my life and had a panic attack all three times so decided never to do it again. It was about 2 days after the last time I did it that the anxiety started, so it was triggered by that I presume. My boyfriend smokes it and a lot of my friends but they all understand I don't like it near me now

  • It sounds to me like you have derealization/depersonalization

    Google it. I have had this for a month now and it's driving me crazy I feel like I'm dreaming and not alive but somehow still functioning. Really hard to explain..

  • You are not alone. You are not going crazy. Also, you will not go insane or lose control...just feels like that. The more you feel that way the more you focus on it and the worst it gets. Stop focusing on how you feel. If you notice, when you get really involved in something (reading a book, actually watching a movie, etc), you don't feel it during that time. I don't know what causes this weird dreamlike, invisible, dazed, feeling like you losing control of breathing, seeing, etc...but it's a lie. Say to yourself, "I'm okay...nothing is going to happen." I mentioned this to my sister when it first began to happen to me. She didn't understand and her comments were more damaging than helpful. I began seeing a therapist which helped. Google "depersonalization"...very helpful. Be encouraged.

  • Thank you, I think this is the sort of stuff I need, to be reassured I guess. Sometimes It gets so bad and i have it every single day, not just during 'stressful periods'. I find it hard to talk to people im close to because before the anxiety started I've always been such a strog character, so no-one can ever imagine me crying or being mentally unwell. It does go when I get involved in something or keep busy, which is the only thing which makes me think I do cause it myself by overthinking myself thinking. All I know is I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy.

  • Me either. It's a most challenging way to live. Though not impossible to enjoy life.

  • You will be fine. I really believe that it is some chemical imbalance or maybe some brain nerve issue. Not really sure but I wish there was some type of medication to cause you not to worry so much. I really hope that you learn how to control it. Just tell yourself its all in your head. And if it gets too bad maybe you should look into taking something.

  • I know exactly how you feel. I wish I could get a therapist who knows what anxiety feels like

  • I can relate to the feeling of being trapped inside my own head, honestly the best thing that will help is cannabis, it's a natural anti anxiety medicaton, and it will help you speak your mind more, it's 100% safe, 0 deaths in the entirety of history have been caused by it or its components, it's impossible to overdose on, it will help you be happy and free your mind, you don't have to smoke it, it's can be ingested many different ways, you can eat it, vape it, drink it, there are tintures and topicals, pills, and there are 1000s of different types, so you can get the effect you are looking for,

    I promise man, it'll help

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