here's my story in a nutshell roughly about 2 years ago all hell broke loose in my life. I ended a relationship got laid off of work. I'm a single parent with two sons, one 23 that made me a grandmother and has no job and one that's 11 and very headstrong, if that's even possible. Bottom line they both drive me up the wall. even though that's not the half of what's going on in my life. Boom!!! its starts one night roughly around 11 p.m. I'm calling 911 because I can't breathe. long story short I think I'm dying this happens repeatedly over the next six to eight months 3 to 4 times a week 911 going into the emergency room help me something is wrong with me I can't breathe, my heart is pounding I can't eat I can't sleep mood swings. over and over again ekg's. feeling so embarrassed after they say there's nothing wrong with me Or my heart there's nothing wrong with me but I feel like I'm breaking up inside. finally I go see my doctor who referred me to a mental specialists. now I've been on lorazepam and tried out several different antidepressant. none of the anti depressants work for me Or couldn't take it long enough because of the side effects. I try not to take lorazepam every day because they tell me its habit forming. I just feel so stuck and hope that this can't be how I will live the rest of my life. now I'm fine throughout the day and don't feel the need to call 911 but the evenings are horrible for me. that's when my anxiety kicks in I get bad headaches I can't sleep or I'm constantly going to the bathroom or taking a shower or having heart palpitations and feel like I have to open my door to get some fresh air. I hate to say this, but this has become part of my life every night for the last 2 years.I've been to several natural food stores are herbal stores. I tried herbal teas, elixirs oils, changing my diet. herbal powders that you supposed to take to come down. supplement etc. Etc....NOTHING. I also smoke cigarettes not during the day mostly at night which is also not good for me. I just don't know what to do anymore or where to turn. Is there anyone on here that can offer any good advice that could help me. Just for taking the time to read my post thank you.