I have for 4 years had challenges with panic attacks and anxiety. I cannot think of a feeling that I have had that is as bad as a panic attack.
I have over the last 4 years felt that I have gradually managed to cope better with panic attacks and anxiety. I was when I was really poorly assessed by the Crisis Team at a local hospital. Over the last 4 years I have constantly lived with the threat that my wife was going to leave me. It was either directly stated or implied. My wife on Wednesday told me that she has found somewhere else to live and will be moving shortly. I felt devasted by this but at the same time not surprise. It was like someone ill dying. You are shocked by the death but not surprised.
I had a spell of 5 months when I was working full time and during this period my wife seemed happy to remain with me. Due to work related anxiety I had to leave the job at the end of January. During the last couple of months at the job I was physically sick before going to work most days. I pushed myself to the end of my strength. From when I left that job my wife was actively looking to leave me whilst to my face was saying that she understood and that she was going to stay with me!!
When I met my wife 10 years ago I worked for a prestigious firm as a solicitor. I had good physical and mental health and a reasonable wage coming. I feel that my wife has abandoned me because of the issues that I have had over the last few years with anxiety and panic attacks. Like all ill health you do not ask for it. I am writing this post to tell you my story and perhaps give a warning that partners can turn their back on you when you have anxiety.
Very best wishes