With the scary thoughts and visualizations, and feeling so distanced from myself, I constantly feel like I am about to lose it.
I felt this way yesterday before going into a restaurant and saw myself like, losing it in the restaurant. I did not and only got anxious five minutes before we left. I was still really proud though cause that restaurant was so crowded.
I mean I know scary thoughts are a common symptom associated with anxiety, but it is hard to apply it to myself. Like really scary thoughts. Like, "will I lose it and hurt someone?" Or "what if, if I am faced with my fear, it causes a mental break?"
Scary stuff like that. I even dream of myself having these thoughts, and in those dreams I tell myself it is just a thought, but I can just see it all so clearly.