This is my first post! I've been reading a few posts on this site and am really keen to gain support from you all and give support where possible!
Everyone who knows me thinks I am bubbly, confident, outgoing and always happy. This is all a mask and they couldn't be more wrong.
For around 6 years I have been very low and depressed and have suffered severe paranoia and irrational thoughts. I worry about what to worry about!! I have always struggled to get close to people (excluding close family and one very close friend) due to trust issues.
I am now engaged, have a beautiful son, fantastic career and a lovely home. I've gotten here by being a great actress!
My anxiety over the last few weeks has heightened, I'm sick constantly and have lost a lot of weight. My career is at risk because I can't face returning back to work after taking some annual leave. There is one person at work who is causing me stress but that shouldn't affect my whole life and thought process!
I'm on no medication as I'm terrified of what it will do to me. I don't want to live like this! I'm starting to wish that I would die so I don't have to have this constant torture!
Can anyone help me understand how to overcome?