Hello friend! This is my first post here. I am reaching out because I can't stand feeling alone anymore. I've been suffering from severe anxiety and depression for nearly 6 long years now. I am in the midst of a bout of agoraphobia. I haven't really left my apartment in almost a year. I hate it. I am a mother to two crazy girls, one is 15 and the other is 4. I've really let my anxiety control my life and I am missing out on so much. I hate that I've let this happen, that my kids are being cheated out of memories we could be creating together. I'm rarely happy, I stay in my room, in my bed a lot. I've just started therapy 3 weeks ago, and I know it takes time but I am definitely not feeling any better. In fact, my anxiety is only getting worse. I do not take any medication for these issues, as I freak out just taking Tylenol. My doctor put me on zoloft, then when that didn't work out, lexipro. That ended up being a nightmare. Also my anxiety causes a lot of weird physical problems, but over this past week I've had the strangest thing happen so far and it's causing me to have a lot of panic attacks. My right arm feels super heavy and weak and my neck as well. I literally have to hold my head up with my hands. The only time I feel ok is when I'm lying down. I can't make it to my doctor right now for several reasons, the main one being I don't think I could actually make the drive to the office. (My anxiety is so bad right now.) Has anyone else ever had something like this happen? This new symptom is freaking me out.
I could really use a friend right now that can relate to what I'm going through. It's a hard life to live like this. I just want to get better.