Sick of searching for answers on the Internet and instead thought i'd pose my questions to some real people and see what the response was.
I am not one to make a fuss, however recently I have been very aware of how much certain things are affecting my everyday life.
I worry particularly about social situations and often avoid such situations because of the anxiety it causes me. When in these uncomfortable situations I often freeze up or saY nothing, mainly due to thoughts such as ' I will say something stupid' or ' I have nothing valuable to contribute anyway'.
This fear of being stupid is also affecting my work life, I contribute nothing out of fear of people thinking I am stupid and although I am as qualified as my colleagues I feel like I may fooling everyone and waiting until they find out that I am an idiot and not as intelligent as them. My work also requires me to talk in front of others which fills me with fear for weeks and results in sheer panic when it comes to the day. This results in a vicious cycle of me feeling like an idiot and not being able to talk to people at work.
As a result of this behaviour I have no friends at work or out of work. I understand that people would find me rude/ strange/ boring etc because of this behaviour. My partner thinks that ths is all normal but I am blowing things out of proportion and I apologise if this is in fact true and I have offended anyone on here.
Although this may be s etching hat I have mad up in my own head, the resul is that I feel Stupid, worthless and a waste f space as.
I desperately want to be happy but Find that there are so many barriers to this and find myself desperately unhappy instead.
Sorry for he long post and sorry if this is notin the correct place also....