Worst feeling in the world fuck anxiety everyday since Halloween of 2012 (I've been sober since then) I've been dealing with this its no exaggeration I swear everyday I feel like Ima die everyday I feel like Ima have a heart attack everyday I feel like Ima have a stroke everyday every night I have heat flashes rapid heart rate I get dizzy I feel confused I start to stutter and slur my speech my face goes numb nd I feel like at that moment I'm done. I feel like this even when I'm with my boys chillen laughing its only a front to forget the feelings I'm having I would do anything in the world to feel normal again. It's a fucked up feeling when your parents, sisters, family, friends,girlfriend all think you're exaggerating they think its cause I don't do anything about it but its not that I've done everything from workouts and diets, to ignoring it doesn't work . they say its all in your head buts to not think about it but its like trying to make a new color its impossible. I'm sorry this is long but I'm having an attack right now @3:30 am nd I needed to let this out to try to focus on writing this instead of my attack that's why it's long.