I have arachnophobia which seems to be getting worse everyday. I check the corners of my room every two seconds to see if any spiders are there, and if some are I completely freak out.
A few weeks ago, I saw a big spider in my bedroom at around 11pm and I just cried on my bed, shaking for hours and eventually cried myself to sleep at around 4am.
Yesterday, I saw three spiders in the space of an hour in my room and completely broke down and was crying uncontrollably, shaking and feeling completely pathetic and hopeless for a while. I refused to sleep in my room afterwards.
I just have this intense feeling of worry and fear all the time and I'm on the verge of tears for most of the day and night when I'm awake.
Also, I've slept in the same room as my sister all my life, and now that she's moving to university, I can't sleep at night and I feel even more fear because I'm up at night alone and no one will be there to make it all go away.
My doctor said if it got worse, I should go back to her and she'd refer me to someone, but my dad says I don't need some therapist and I can just kill the spiders with a book, but he doesn't understand how deathly afraid of them I am.
The fear is keeping me up at night, and I feel as though if I turned the light off, then I would be even more defenseless, so I sleep more in the day time - which will obviously be a huge problem when I go to college in September.
What can I do about any of this? I don't want to feel this defenseless and pathetic for the rest of my life. How can I make it go away?