I am going mad. I am volunteering at Glamorgan's Cricket Ground for all their T-20 Blast games, the first shift was last night. It's was fun but also hard to cope with. One volunteer called Sally really is someone who pushes every ones buttons and then acts like its not her fault. She arrived and started kicking off about where she was working (with me) and her choice of words toward me, other volunteers, staff and fans coming to the game.
In the end I told her to shut up and she took my words to heart, but she called the bosses several swear words. She was rude to fans too, being short with them. She needed to be told endlessly she was doing a good job but never did any work or help me.
She went and complained about me being rude to her, I lost my temper. I can't work with someone who isn't working as a part of the team. I went to say sorry to her but she acted like she couldn't hear me!
My heart was beating fast, it's been doing this for ages now. Told the doctor about it but she said it's normal when you have anxiety, but it's not nice. I had to take time away from the game and chill out, but it went away fast. Is a racing heartbeat normal/?! I do hope so or I might have to go back for another check up.
Apart from Sally, I loved being a part of a great team and love live sport. I hope on June 13th, things go smooth and I don't lose my temper
weird cbt session and now i feel confused :/
Relationship and Anxiety
