Good morning heart ach.

[shadow45]

We all know the struggle with anxiety and how it can shape our lives.... I now live with the reality that I may never be able to make right many of the mistakes I have made regarding my family and friends.... I sit in this little town with few friends when i think about my day... and what Ill do or who I can see... the choices are few...When I started to get control of my anxiety I knew I would have to get my social life back on track... But that meant going to the local pub to interact with the old crowd... who I really don't have anything in common with...And since I don't really enjoy drinking any more... its a bit uncomfortable. I do go and have a pop and something to eat at times. But it feels artificial. Because of this feeling i have that I am manufacturing social contact and no one is really close to me it makes me sad.... And when I get sad I start to think of all the things I said and did to people I really loved that pushed them away. Then I start to wonder why I bother at all... Morning after morning I wake to this feeling... If I dream of being in a group... or maybe having a snog with a woman... when I wake up I now its all just a dream and I get sad..... It just a bummer to be like this steve

[Yummimummi]

Hey Steve

I'm sorry you're feeling like this

What do your new work colleagues do for down time?

Maybe look into doing something bowling, something that gets you all together.

I hope you are well otherwise

Hugs x

[shadow45]

Hi Yummi....Getting together with people from work has some issues as 90% are younger women... Well I should say ...most if not all the people I work with are 20 years younger than myself. I think I feel this way right now because my brother and daughter are out of the country.... So that's a bit of a mental issue having them so far out of touch. I worry about my parents now as well as my brother will not be in contact with them for another 5 weeks. Its just this up and down thing I hate.... I can get myself to a place where I am relatively content with my life Then in the mornings I feel lost and alone. Then I have to pump myself up again.... I am back to work tomorrow for three days.. I just get frustrated at myself for getting into this situation in the first place...

[bepete]

Hey steve.

if you can access action on depression ive done a Saturday night music quiz, see if you can get the answers it might give you something else to think about for a while,

pete

[Hidden in reply to bepete]

Hi Pete, so I just search action on depression? but, I haven't seen your music quiz, I enjoyed doing your last one.

Thanks Eunice

[bepete in reply to Hidden]

That ones finished now.