I have a huge fear of throwing up and it's ruining my life! I hate the thought of throwing up, seeing people throw up And to throw up. I feel like I have lost my friends because I'm scared to leave my house because I'm scared to catch the stomach flu, I'm scared to go to restaurants because I'm scared to get food poisoning, there is so many things I'm missing out on, I never want to get pregnant even thought I'm only 15 I mean when I'm older, I never want to drink because I'm scared to get drunk and throw up, and I don't talk to many of my friends anymore. I also dont want to get a job because i never feel good and im scared because if i go to work im stuck there and i cant leave.I feel like killing myself because I feel so alone, I know there are alot of people with this fear but I don't know anyone, my mom sorta has it but when I try telling her about it and how I want help, she tells me I don't need help and that I have to talk to myself and tell myself ill be ok, but it never works! I start to cry when I worry about it and my mom tells me to stop cause I'm acting childish. I just can't help it! I just had undercooked meatballs for supper tonight and I've been freaking out for the past 3 hours. I just don't know what to do anymore. I also always feel like I have to bring a bottle of water around with me, I don't know why but it calms me. I'm just trying to see if anyone knows a way to get over this fear. I've had it since I was about 4 because I got the Norowalk virus for a week, and then when I was 11 I got the 24 hours flu and that's when the fear got really bad. Please help!