Ive now been waiting 14 weeks for cbt.. I was told there was a 3 month waiting list so its expected but the longer it goes on the more im feeling down about it all, i have called and they have reassured me that i am on the waiting list and it shouldnt be much longer but they will call me when im top of the list.
I am totally house bound now its like its become a fear of going outside. Just stepping outside my house makes me panic shake and sweat now i honestly never thought it would get this bad.
Also i cant be around anyone now either as im constantly panicking the only time i can relax is when im alone, i cant even relax around my long term partner so i avoid him constantly. If hes downstairs i go upstairs and vice versa.
Also something strange is happening with my heart about once every 2-3 days and when it happens it feels very strange and horrible and it automatically makes me cough after its so scary
This is got so bad and i really hope i can acheive my goal of taking my son to his first day at school in september.