Hi everyone this is a bit of an appeal just to hear from anyone who does what I do even when they are doing well with their lives.
And in doing well I acknowledge that I've got a lot of excitable, manic energy. But with needing to wee a lot and after breaking my bucket mid wee (so gross) I am really excited to have ordered a bedpan (which spellchecker tries to change to bedlam) this is a liberating habit that keeps me in the bubble of my room that I don't want to surrender.
Whilst a lot of what I experience has stuff on google, the only things I can find on bedpans, commodes and so on refers to bedridden paients. This isn't me. I just prefer not to have to fully wake up, interrupt work or clothe myself several times an hour.
I've heard from people who have done something like ths when they feel bad which was a huge help But I have less excuses now. If anyone had anything to add or has read anything about the use of such tools in connection with anxiety I would really like to hear it.
love and luck to you all