I lost hope. there is no light. my problems and bad thinking habits are so deeply rooted that nothing can help me.. tablets. therapies..it simply doesnt work. I've had enough..this timevis different. I dont believe I can feel better. I lost the war. not a battle. crying all the time and thinking about my death as a solution.. but thats egoistic. gave up work after 1 day I feel like a horrible and useless failure. dont want my bf to see me cry so I sleep all the time. Im taking one a night sleeping pills. when I wake up I take another one..want to disppear and dont bother my bf. it is getting boring for every one. the same bloody thing.. and when ppl tell me im only 30 I panic . I think that I might live till eg 60 and dont imagine suffering so long.. I wish I were old now..
anybody has the same feeling ?