Had an awful Christmas. So boring. The trouble with nothing to do is that I start to get introspective and bad thoughts keep running through my head. My partner didn't help either. We were invited to certain things but he didn't want to go. Should have gone by myself but this upsets me. It felt as though he didn't want to do anything with me. I arranged the whole of Christmas and if I hadn't then we would have done nothing. Won't do it again next year. Will just please myself.