What am i doing.

[Cookster99]

Hi all,

I have made a big mistake and watched you tube experiences of people who have been through the treatment i am starting next week ( god its in a few days, what am i on about lol ) and now i am filled with dread. I know why my nurse said it was a good thing i was already on anxiety meds but its the insomnia ( which i have already ) and the nausea, fatigue and aching all over, changes in taste and the dreaded brain fog that im dreading. I have packing to do and am moving house.

I have decided to get the house packed before thursday so i wont have to deal with it when im feeling like poo.

A good friend has always warned me not to google stuff and Whywhy, my apologies.

i know it wont be forever and i need to keep focused on the end goal. Take each day as it comes and not think of the months i will be undergoing this.

I know my family and my good friends here will support me.

Love, a shakey Cookie xxx

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Cookie grrrr

Well when the title said what have I been doing , I thought you were going to say playing on games on FB & sending a friend invites to play who keeps deleting them , pack it in will you , my wall gets so messy you no since you have been on

You silly thing you , why didnt you come on here message or something & talk this through , oh no , that would have been easy

Well , remember , everyone is different & you certainly are , so what ever you have been watching , it doesnt mean it will be you , cast it aside , bin the thoughts

Come on , this is going to make you better & we are here do not fear

Sending big hugs & please no more game requests

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[Cookster99]

Lol, anything to get a reaction, ill find summut else to mess up your wall lol. My OH told me not to watch stuff then i wish i hadnt told her i was freaking out a bit as i got THE LECTURE lol. I dont want to go in blind, i know i am different but fore warned is fore armed and all that old house wiffery wives wisdom lol. xxx

Thanks for all your support hun.

That ugly thing in the pic is not one of mine by the way.

Im gonna have a scotch egg, bag of crisps and watch a film about serial killers, Living the dream lol xxx

[Hidden in reply to Cookster99]

You are causing me so much time having to clean my wall , you no I have OCD woman

Yes I have observed you seem to have sent me that pic as well its appeared on my wall

Oh its not ugly , its cute

Well I am with OH , you deserved the lecture

Sounds like a nice supper lol dont make crumbs , mind you that would mean missing your mouth , so dont suppose that will happen

I am going in the shower , then a bit of Peter Andre , I feel will go down nice & then I have a good film , its called Silver Linings playbook , sky movies is free for a month at the mo & then you get it took of before they charge you , so downloaded it , if I have time I will watch it , they say its good

love ya

xxx

[Cookster99 in reply to Hidden]

that is a superb film, i downloaded it for nothing lol, have watched it 4 times, love the music at the end xxx Peter Andre, mate, come on now, please, TORTURE xxx

[Hidden in reply to Cookster99]

Oh daughter said she had watched it & i would like it

Come on mate , Peter is lovely , not as good as Will-i-am , but pleasant to my eyes I feel

Any progress getting me Will-i-am yet , that should be keeping you busy

xxx

[bonnie1959]

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Bonnie

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[Cookster99 in reply to bonnie1959]

Bless you Bonnie, i hope you feel better soon hun. I feel like this at times but not as much as i used to.

Im thinking of you hun and sending you big warm comforting hugs. xxx

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[KatyCee]

We will be here to hold your hand through all of this Cookie I'm sorry to hear you're a shakey Cookie but it sounds like you have the right mentality - take each day as it comes Maybe don't even look past the next hour and just celebrate every moment that you feel a little better and don't have a particular symptom.

Sending big cuddles,

Katy xx

[Cookster99 in reply to KatyCee]

Thanks Katy, i will do hun. I have trouble thinking period so ill be fine on that score lol xxx

[KatyCee in reply to Cookster99]

Ideal, that should work in your favour haha. xxx

[Cookster99 in reply to KatyCee]

something needs to work in my favour and soon or im gonna lose the plot lol xxx