Does anyone else manage to destroy potential relationships?
Feeling so annoyed with myself today and embarrased at the way i ve managed to drive away another man. I did nt go into it last night meaning to have the "big chat", i swore this time i would nt try to seek reassurance to alliviate my anxious feelings and that id try to sort it myself and its all gone wrong. The man in question would it appear to be one of lifes good guys, he could easily strung me along for months but was brutally honest in that he does nt see himself in a relationship with anyone. Although he assures me this is not personal i cant help but feel dreadful today as i feel so disposable to people, im so easily cast aside. I feel as if my mere presence in someones life is annoying to them and that they dont actually like me, im special to no one.
I want someone to love me but im so scared of getting hurt again that i seem to press self destruct everytime. Im questioning today if there is anyone for me and even if there is am i strong enough to handle having someone in my life, the thing i want most is what scares me most if that makes sense,
Does anyone else do this? Please give me some advice, i just want what others have got, i cant face the idea of being alone forever.
Looking Glass xxx