Struggles...

[Elbo]

Since I had a massive breakdown about my new job and turned it down I just can't seem to get myself back from the edge of panic, been on lorazepam for 3 weeks now they help and i start to feel better to push my self to do stuff but I just keep having random panic attacks (yesterday in the middle of costa coffee :-(, day before at the doctors) and it scares the hell out of me to think that I could go back to how it was a few years ago when I was having constant attacks my ibs also flares up really badly and really gets me down. I think depression is kicking in because I just don't want to do anything. went to the docs and the waiting list for more therapy is 18 months so I've started listening to my hypno CDs booked an appt at hypno. Booked a back massage and my doctor recommended an audio book called mind fullness in a frantic world which I have ordered and am going to try apparently its like CBT my doc highly recommended it. I've been signed off work for 3 weeks so there's no pressure there, I'm just finding it all very had. I think this is because I went nearly a year without a bad attack and the horribleness of it all and everything I've been through for the past 7+ years just came flooding back and it's hard to ignore when that's what your body remembers. But I will get there again one thing I am really looking forward to is my holiday so having to make sure I have everything in order for that.

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Hi Elbo I'm sorry you are feeling so low at the moment love. It doesn't mean though that your bad times are coming back or that they will be as bad as before. It sounds like you are being very positive and strong and doing your best to help yourself.

Don't push yourself so hard - little steps are best. One at a time. Don't put yourself under too much pressure and be gentle with yourself. After all thats what you would do for a friend wouldn't you. Be your own best friend.

Keep going.

Bev xx

[Elbo]

Thank you! It's hard but ill get there again I'm sure keeping positive, one day at a time xxx

[laineyc13]

chin up,any space of time with no attacks is recovery so b re-assured its just a bump,u r coping and moving forward so clear the negative thoughts and take pride in ur achievements

[jack_s]

Most of us can relate to you. I have just seen your thread and wanted to respond. Have you tried a guy called Carl Sheppard. He works with many types of individuals who suffer like us with GAD, depression / OCD. I think he's brilliant. He may be worth checking out on Google, look for Carl Sheppard. Take Care and i hope you find something positive that helps you. stay in touch.xx