Am i losing it .....

[Cookster99]

To all the people on this site, i often think of you at night,

while lying here and wide awake, just waiting for the dawn to break.

then daybreak comes, alone again with just my memories and my pain,

for no one knocks upon my door, do i live here anymore.

its six months now since this first came, i doubt ill be myself again,

my will is fading day by day, i never thought id feel this way

i mourn for who i used to be, my life now lived in solitary,

in just one room, i like to stay, the reason? i feel safe that way.

i often climb into my mind, to relive things ive left behind,

ive built a house with lots of doors, behind each one, a memory stored,

i often wonder, if i crack, ill get locked in and not come back

will anyone come look for me, in my house thats called Anxiety.?

Love and best wishes xxx

[Hidden]

Cookie

You are very good at putting into words how you feel

I was going to say that was lovely as you described it so well , but not sure if lovely is the right word to use when you feel so low

You are & will get through this because don't forget , you told me when we made friends you wernt for crumbling , you get soggy which is ok , but no crumbling , I believe you & I believe in you

I will just send you a

And a great big

{{{{{{{hug}}}}}}}

stop thinking about me in the night though will you

love

whywhy

xxx

[Cookster99 in reply to Hidden]

thank you why, its hard to get soggy when you are numb, think i need to though. xxx

[BriarRose]

When you're trapped in that house of pain,

And think you can't get out again -

I'll come, on every door I'll knock,

If that doesn't work, I'll break the lock,

Till I find the room you're hiding in.

I won't give up, i won't give in,

Till I bring our Cookie back again!

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{COOKIE}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

[Hidden in reply to BriarRose]

Like that Rose ...Ditto

xxx

[BriarRose in reply to Hidden]

I know, Why, I was banking on having you with me!

{{{{{{{{{{{{COOKIE AND WHY}}}}}}}}}}}}}

[Hidden in reply to BriarRose]

Always

xxx

[Cookster99 in reply to BriarRose]

on thankyou, nice to know im friends with a burgler lol, im joking. bless you rose xxx

[BriarRose in reply to Cookster99]

ROFL!!!! I don't think burglars knock first, hun! xxxxxxx

[Cookster99 in reply to BriarRose]

i would, how else do you know if people are in. id feel sorry for anyone burgling me lol, id keep them prisoner and get them doing the cleaning lol xxx

[henige in reply to BriarRose]

lovely to have people like you who make the effort to think these lovely verses.

[fadedlizard]

Lovely poem, Cookie, you really have a talent with rhymes.

I don't - you'll never be rescued if the reply has to be in verse!!!

However I promise to come looking for you, love.

Try to take heart - it won't always be like this.

Lots of Love and Hugs,

Lizard.xxx

[BriarRose in reply to fadedlizard]

Well, Liz that's 3 of us who will go looking for Cookie if she disappears! And no, you don't have to do it in verse - but you're right, Cookie is a talented poet, even though she won't accept it!

Hope you're okay Liz, sorry haven't been around much!

Love n hugs

Rose

xxxx

[Hidden in reply to BriarRose]

I'm coming too... We can't have an anxiety site without cookie noooo

I'm pants at poems... Listen

Where's cookie? she hiding maybies

Knock down those doors and feed her jellybabies(with mirtazapine so she can have a rest).

You see I have no talent when it comes to poems so don't you go hiding cookie we need you.... Big hugs xxxx

Ps I think my meds may need reviewing I'm feeling a bit off my head today x

[BriarRose in reply to Hidden]

Awww, Eve, have a jelly baby, I can spare one or two! xxxx

[Cookster99 in reply to Hidden]

lol. thannks eve, that made me smile. xxx thanks for sharing them pills lol xxx

[Hidden in reply to Cookster99]

Glad I made you smile

I'm sending you some jelly babies (the mirtazapine is inside their heads sssh don't tell rose or she will be pinching em!... She doesn't eat heads first so you should be ok get in there quick)

Loads of love xx

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Cookie Sorry I'm late in replying just come back after trying to ravage the manager os my local sainsbury.

Can I join the others in trying to rescue you from that room.

I can bring my shotgun

Grog

[Cookster99 in reply to Hidden]

i like your style. i think everyone in retail should have refresher courses in etiquette and in your local, restraint training too lol. i hate shopping, with a passion. it is avoided at all costs. if i do go with my OH, i like getting in and out ASAP. its like been on an SAS mission. xxx under cover cookie x

[Hidden]

Cookie one day I will have to take you shopping in a supermarket.You will love every hour of it.Put me in a hypermarket and I can easily spend all day there.

I go armed with my calculator,my books on additives and a small weighing machine.I compare prices.weights,volume and special offers.It once took me 45 minutes to choose a tin of marrow fat peas.

I love shopping....just hate the assistants.....and the prices.

Grog

xxx

[Cookster99 in reply to Hidden]

i went to lakeside, once, had a mini meltdown, got a ginger temper on and made a hasty retreat and sat in sisters car waiting for them for 3 hrs. i was still stressed on way home lol. i love marrow fat peas, i open the tin, drain them off, add tomato sauce and mmmmmm strait from the tin, cold mmm xxx