On the advice of my doctor and the counsellor i've started seeing, i spoke to my line manager at work about my Anxiety attacks and lack of self confidence, which have arisen following a stressful incident with one of our customers. He was a bit taken aback and although he obviously thinks i'm being a bit of a wimp (I'm the only female engineer in the company) , he's been very kind in letting me work from the office while the others pick up the field work.
However, two days after this, our Head of Service sent an email round saying that we are being restructured which may involve redundancies. Now i feel even more anxious as I think about being a prime candidate for redundancy because of my problem.
On a more positive note, I mentioned how stressful the job was to a colleague and learned to my surprise that he also suffers from anxiety but far worse than me. We've now got a little self help group going between the two of us so we can support each other if needed. It's nice to feel i'm not the only one who can't cope. I wonder how many other companies have several staff with similar problems but who keep it to themselves and think they're alone.