A year ago I went off a long term med (paxil for 18 yrs) After going through a horrible withdrawal period, then constant nausea for nearly a year, I now find myself obcessing about doom & gloom and cannot get myself back on track. I think of death daily, NOT that I want to die. I am terrified to. I think of how hopeless this is feeling and am so terrified to think of when my time will come. I dwell on what I will miss, although my husband says "you won't know, because you will no longer be alive". How true. I try not to talk to many about how desperate I feel. I go to my physciatrist every 8 wks. He listens but really, what can he do? I'm on Luvox, and a tiny dose of clonazepam, and risperidome. I have Ativan for "emergencies". I feel like the world's biggest coward and so alone. I can't vent to my husband too much (he is one very brave man) and our daughter is dealing with enough serious problems of her own so I don't like to unload on her. Really you don't need to respond....I just needed to vent my fears and frustrations.