consequences are starting to unfold

[Penguinlover09]

So my son is definitely pulling away from his dad and honestly who can blame the kid? It has been two weeks now that his dad hasnt called him during the week. My son stopped calling him too. He tells me all the time that the only time they talk is when he calls him and its not fair. Last weekend my son decieded not to go over to his dads because he wasnt feeling well. Friday night he said how it felt weird being home on a friday night. I asked him if he liked it and he said" Yes staying home is my favorite thing" I imagine him "not feeling well" was an excuse because despite a cough he seemed fine and was outside playing with his friends all weekend long. Well tonight he kept mentioning things he wanted to do this weekend, I thought I wonder if hes thinking of staying home again. And at 9pm he comes to me and says "I wish this weekend would be chill like it was last weekend, it was nice I didnt have to get up or deal with their dog" I told him "you can stay home if you want to" He said "no I cant not go two weeks in a row, I have to go" I told him that he didnt and he said okay that hell think about it....everyone who knows how little his dad is involved said this would happen.

I feel guilty about it. I know my ex's family think its me keeping him from his dad but it is not me. My son is 10 and is capable of deciding if he wants to go or stay home. Im trying not to care but I think this is what is going to be the driving force of things getting even messier. Not because of my ex-my ex is just saying okay to everything and he understands. The issue will l be my ex's mother. She is the one who calls my son and makes him feel bad for not going. She is the one who calls me and tells me I have no right to keep him from them. But she has no idea that her son isnt being a parent...my therapist even said the same thing its not my ex who will be the problem it will be his mother. She told me to start writing everything factual down like the days my kid cries himself to sleep, the declining grades in school, the mood difference when he comes home from visits with dad. She told me to try to voice record convos too (which is a bit harder because I normally dont know when these convos will happen and I cant exactly tell my son hold on let me record...) Just to have proof of everything. Everyone keeps telling me things are probably going to get messy. But he would be stupid to take me to court if hes the one on drugs. Also I am not to blame for this. I am not sitting here asking my son "Please dont go over this weekend" it is his decision and his decision alone.

I also feel guilty because seeing this unfold brings me joy. I have front row seats to see a consequence for my ex and for everything he did and is putting us thru. It's what I wanted I wanted him to have a consequence, and this is definitely a consequence that I get to witness firsthand, but I feel horrible for feeling joy because its not just effecting my ex, it effects my son too.