I’m just typing because I want to be heard, but can’t get the support I need from therapy. I had so many unanswered messages and it almost felt like this woman tried to mess with my emotions on purpose (the old therapist). By being here in the support group I refuse to go back to her therapy office because I know she’s praying my life goes to shit without her around anymore and I crawl back for her help.
I just don’t know who to trust anymore. My career life is changing for the positive and I’m so grateful, but I’m weary that some people close to me aren’t completely in my corner or happy for me at all. I’m honestly worried they would take opportunities to either sabotage me or betray in some way to set me back to another rock bottom.
I don’t feel my discernment is strong enough on my own to figure out who is fake around me because I love these people so much and they gained my trust. However Im aware some people can wear a mask. I can’t take the stress and seriously considering cutting everybody off. I know they say you attract wha you think and feel, but I can ignore the challenges of life too and I’m struggling a lot.