I feel like there’s no help for me. Out of the things out there, there’s not one place that can help me right now. No support groups. No one to talk to. I am a burden.
This guilt will kill me. I’m in love with someone who I broke their heart, broke their trust and they want nothing to do with me. I can never invest in self love or any kind of it to anyone. I’m a broken records that needs to be trashed.
Alcohol and drugs is my only comfort. No longer motivated to do anything anymore.
I know my family will be upset that I’ll be gone. But I can’t live like this anymore. I’m a man who can’t change. Will continue living a life that all i do is disappoint and will always lie.
This pain needs to stop. I want to sleep and never wake up. Please help me.
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im sorry you’re feeling this way. Im currently trying to find comfort and understanding in my own relationship but it feels like there is never anyone to talk to.
If you are in the US, call 988 and talk to a therapist. It's free. Do you have a primary care doctor you can call? Do you have a therapist or psychiatrist? If not, I suggest you get them. You cannot get through this on your own. We all need help of some type. Call your local mental health agency and see if they have any support groups. If you're in the US, check out the DBSA website, they have meetings going on all the time all over the country, some are in person and others are by zoom. You can heal and get better. Read and post on this group. The people here are awesome.
I understand being afraid to call for help. I've had anxiety and depression for 30 years and I would never call the hotline, even when I was very suicidal but last Saturday, my anxiety was so bad that I called and said I just needed someone to talk to and the lady stayed on the phone with me and did a guided meditation and breathing exercise and just chatted. She calmed me down and didn't rush me on the phone or anything. Do you live in the US?
You need to call and get a human on the phone so you can say what's on your mind and get feedback. There are also Warm Lines throughout the country that you can call. Here is a list of warm lines: warmline.org/warmdir.html#d...
my friend I was right where you were in late 2022. Nothing was going right. The pain was never ending. In fact it was getting worse. Insomnia was ruling the day for the first time of my life. I was definitely planning on checking out. Just couldn’t see the point anymore and the pain was beyond what I could accept.
All of a sudden it hit me. Go to a hospital. First time for me. Your life has some value see if they can help.
Do you have insurance?
Correct me if I’m wrong people but I think if he is in a emergency ,which definitely sounds like he is then he can go to an ER and they should be able to take him to a mental facility ,in patient him ,and see what they can do for him . What happened to me was there is a $2000 bill left over what my insurance covered . I worked out a $31 payment a month until it’s paid off .
It’s worth the bill, whatever the total might be to save your life ,because they’ll let you pay what you can afford
Your post sounds very much like it’s Mayday time. Go get some serious help at the hospital. They know how to take care of you, even if you’ve been to one before . what do you got to lose. Maybe from there you’ll find some relief like I did. I’m 90% Recovered from nasty depression and anxiety.. That’s been there for quite a while.
Turns that I was severely under medicated by these passive psychiatrists that I was going to , this hospital was anything but passive. They immediately took my pain away. It was amazing.!
When you feel better ya act better. Life will then improve
No. You are a man who CAN change like all of us if we realise it and turn our minds outwards instead of keep dwelling on the past.
You can't change the past - you really can't you know. What is important is not what mistakes you make because we all do that - but learning your lessons from them and putting them behind you. You haven't got to forgive (even yourself) or forget but it is essential to move forward.
If you live in the past you live with regret and guilt. In the future with worry and anxiety. You need to start living in the present and that way you reach a level of peace and acceptance.
If you can't find this in yourself then maybe therapy? I assume you have tried this but keep looking to find help even if it didn't work out at the time then try again.
No one is saying any of this is remotely easy but you have nothing to lose do you? And potentially a lot to gain.
You want to sleep and never wake up. Well, sleep. Do that for yourself, and when you wake up and feel like getting out of bed, do that for yourself. Then while you are doing your wake-up routine, don't let those thoughts enter your head. If they do get in, just acknowledge them and move on. Keeping busy will help you. You have value in this world; remember that and don't let anyone tell you any different - even that voice in your head. Death comes soon enough without your doing anything to hasten it. Put the past behind you and build yourself a magnificent future.😊😊
Sorry you are dealing with so much. There are free support groups through NAMI and you can also go to Live Well Foundation.org who also has several zoom support groups. I have used LiveWell before and their groups are helpful. They have great moderators and are organized. Meanwhile if you are truly in crisis go to the ER. Please talk to someone. Many of us have been where you are.,
How old are you? Can you get Medicaid? I really suggest looking into that and getting help immediately. Otherwise as previous people have said, call hotlines and go to the hospital if needed. You're never alone.
Yeah, things get rough, but always remember you have a good amount of control. A lot of anxiety and depression is hormonal. Use of muscles generate feel good emotions - they are part of the endocrine system. Walk, run until you're tired, volunteer at a Parkrun (or any organisation), talk with a friend, strike up a conversation, join a club. I don't want to downplay how you're feeling but you are not a victim here. It's just that our body is often less than helpful.
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why do I need so much help?
I need help giving help...
Moving and need help 
Who needs Valium when you have lavender.
