My latest spoken word style writing - this one is still in progress - Historically I'll close these writings with some sort of positvity

[bald-man]

God why won’t you rescue me?

What are you doing or more accurately why aren’t you doing anything?

You’ve turned a deaf ear and a blind eye to my cries for help.

The heavens are shut off to me.

I cry for help

I cry for rescue

Yet nothing changes

Except for growing worse

Nothing I touch works

Nothing I touch prospers

Whatever I try fails

My only success is continuing to fail

I’m beyond the end of my rope

I’m off the edge of a cliff

How long will this last

Why won’t it end

Depression is a brain fog that just won’t lift

No focus

No motivation

No direction

I’m tired

I’m exhausted

I’m worn out

I need a win

Anxiety paralyzes my brain

Drains my emotions

Overwhelms my senses

The smallest thing sets me off

Numb

Angry

Overwhelmed

All at the same time

Fear

Stress

Racing thoughts

All making noise in my head

[Rufus07]

Wow! I could have wrote this.

[LazyXrayEyes2255]

this needs to be published

[bald-man in reply to LazyXrayEyes2255]

Thanks! Still working on finishing it.

[LazyXrayEyes2255 in reply to bald-man]

Cheap way to copyright it

Send it in mail to yourself but don’t open unless neeeded in court to prove it’s yours

[LazyXrayEyes2255 in reply to LazyXrayEyes2255]

has date on it etc

[MassamanCurry]

Wow! That's grim. Does this help you in anyway? It's hard for me to read from my perspective. I know all too well the negatives in my life and I try hard to compartmentalize them. I guess I'm missing your point for writing this and why on this format. I'm came here looking for help and positivity. I'm guessing this is your poetry? And writing down the negatives in your life this way gives you a sort of strength? Please help me understand.

[bald-man in reply to MassamanCurry]

For me it's a way to get the thoughts out of my head and out on paper. Personally I've found that writing, in various formats is therapeutic. Sometimes I write in this form (this poem is a work in progress and I typically will turn it positive as I end it), sometimes it's a short story which has typically been in the sci-fi / fantasy / horror genre. Keeping negative thoughts in my head always drives me deeper into anxiety and depression.

[Animalrespect in reply to bald-man]

I DO think writing has been proven to be therapeutic. I also have a hard time writing down thoughts like that… but I don’t doubt that they help many people.

[Animalrespect]

Those words are very heartfelt and hit all the buttons for anxiety and depression. It seems like your ( meaning your as in our collective minds) is trying to kill you and it’s very hard for others to understand. Because everyone has some anxiety and depression ( I say SOME) they feel that they have experienced what you have and just managed to “ put on their big girl pants” and pull themselves out of it. That becomes hurtful and extremely shame inducing. I have points where I just have to put one foot in front of the other, even if it is just to take the dog to the backyard to pee. But what else can you do.? I have heard ( somewhere 🤷🏻‍♀️ ) that major depressive incidents are self limiting. One can only hope so!Hang in there… and thanks for sharing!