Why cant a I just accept and get used to the ongoing symptoms??

[Timmypliskin]

This @#÷@#% has been going on so long, day in and out, why does it still scare me so much? Everyone tells me that it all has to be anxiety, and have to accept that.

It's not that easy when your afraid your going to die every day, all day, and nothing gets better, and the system that is supposed to help is a joke, all they do is put you off, pawn you off, WHAT DO YOU HAVE TO DO TO GET HELP?! Do I have to do something drastic?! That's what it feels like,

I'm doing everything I'm supposed to do to get help, and Nothing! I have no problem going to counseling, but listening to calming music and deep breathing isn't going to cut it... my coping skills have got me this far, but when a person is at the end of their rope, they need real help.

All these agencies talk a big game, " we help people, and change lives" but they don't, it's all about business, making money, and the rest of the medical community is bogged down with substance abuse treatment, cause it's the cash cow of the moment, and no resources leftover for people who really need help.

Thanks for listening, sorry having a hard time.

[kenster1]

hi its hard to accept how we are with anxiety/depression but if we can it goes a long way to help our recovery.

[Timmypliskin in reply to kenster1]

Thanks for your time.

[kenster1 in reply to Timmypliskin]

anytime.

[Kaytee1981]

Oh I so get you. I'm in the uk so the making money bit doesnt apply (unless your feeling really cynical - and I dont have the brain space for that). Anyway you get the agencies talking the talk - do this breathing, listen to this music, hold this ice cube...but have they actually been in the situation where they have had to use these techniques to get you out of an anxiety attack, the need to self harm or spiralling depression and suicidal thoughts?

I've basically been told by my mental health nurse that I need to try harder and do things for myself rather than searching for a quick fix or magic pill - the magic pill statement I find amusing considering she keeps going on about reviewing my meds and is always asking if I'm taking them properly and if my lithium is working - yes, yes and who knows.

I just want help - I'm happy to talk to someone that will go out their way to try and understand and ask the right questions. I just want to be understood and helped for what is really going on, the really feeling I have inside that wont come out.

[Timmypliskin in reply to Kaytee1981]

Thank you, yes the hurry up and wait routine wears thin after a bit.

[Timmypliskin in reply to Kaytee1981]

I understand, I say all the time if the people that are getting paid to help us,. Had to spend a week , just w week, in my head, things would be alot different

[Kaytee1981 in reply to Timmypliskin]

Lol yeah I might suggest that to my mental health nurse when I see her tomorrow and she spouts the usually 'have you managed to go to the gym' crap at me! How about 'no I've felt suicidal most the weekend and it's taken all my being to not act on it'

[Timmypliskin in reply to Kaytee1981]

No kidding... You have to love the blank stare you get when you try to tell them something that isn't in their "action plan" .. it must be part of their training...

[Kaytee1981 in reply to Timmypliskin]

She brought out my safety plan last week to 'up date it' nope really there is nothing on there that has changed, nope really it's all the same ffs

[Timmypliskin in reply to Kaytee1981]

No kidding... it's a mess

[Depresseddoglover]

I don't have any advice for you that you haven't already received. I just wanted you to know that I see you and I see how hard you are struggling. I also could not accept my awful feelings despite it being widely recommended by professionals and fellow forum members. Do you ever have any relief? Do you have dogs? Do you like walking them? Taking care of animals has been my only reason to live at times. I'm so sorry for your suffering.

[Timmypliskin in reply to Depresseddoglover]

Thank you, I do have dogs, I have been such a Trainwreck the last couple months, I can barely walk them without panicking, I'm afaid I'm going to pass out or worse , worry that they will run off or get lost. It sucks. Anxiety that is

[Kaytee1981 in reply to Timmypliskin]

I walk my dogs when I know/its extremely unlikely that I'm going to see anyone, even another dog walker runs the risk of an impromptu 'hello' which will panic me - I like a silent dog walk!

[kenster1 in reply to Kaytee1981]

I go hill walking with the dog and if I see other people I feel they are invading my space even although I have miles and miles of places to go.