Trigger warning ⚠️ Don’t read if you only want to hear positive things . I’m getting better finally. The problem is the better I get, the less delusional I am. You might be confused by that. The less delusional I get, the more I realize my life is Fubar. 33 yo male security guard that is living with my parents. Lost the only person who really cared about me. The woman I’m talking to now might be trying to scam me lol. I should write a blues song. This is awful. There’s much more horror too. No where to go it seems. I missed the boat and now I’m left to rot. Maybe there is but I’m not smart enough to see it. Still recovering from lifelong depression/anxiety. Recovery is brutal but I am seeing good progress. I’m very negative and blunt sometimes. Any ideas on what to do? I have a useless bachelors psyche degree too. I know this is disorganized writing. I’m too tired to fix it. Anyone want to be friends and cry together and be pathetic sometimes? lol. Oh yea and it seems like the US is completely crumbling and becoming even more of a dystopia. So there’s that. Looking for friends or just acquaintances to learn from. I’ve been isolated for too long. It’s like starting a life at 33. Just crazy. Anybody can relate somewhat?
Hopeless…Looking for companionship…Idk - Anxiety and Depre...
Hopeless…Looking for companionship…Idk
I feel you on the whole US dystopia thoughts. I've been bouncing between anxious where I'm unable to do anything productive because of it and depression where I don't want to do anything. I think a lot of us are feeling the same way so you're not alone there.
Curious (not judging), if you think the woman you're dating may be trying to scam you, why are you still dating her? If you already have a lack of trust, maybe walking away from it can free up some time and mental energy to help improve your other areas of your life that you want to. I know that's easier said than done though.
We are not together but close and talk everyday. She seems to want to get closer but I don’t want to jump into a relationship just because my ex blocked me and I’ll probably never see or talk to her again. I enjoy talking to this woman because she’s mostly sweet and is more than likely sincere. I’m probably just paranoid but I could easily be a sucker. I don’t know if I will ever have a relationship again. I wouldn’t want me but I’d be happy with a few real friends
Sorry I haven't been on in a few days to respond. It can be hard to know who to trust. I stopped dating over 5 years ago because of that and a few other factors. I think what finally made me not feel bad about it was when I made the decision for me to not date and not that I just couldn't find anyone to date. It was kind of freeing to make that decision and decide to focus on other things. It also brought me a lot of clarity as to why I get stuck in bad relationships. Obviously you have to decide what's best for you, but if you feel it's right to walk away and you can take a break from dating, it might help with some clarity around why you think you're a sucker in relationships.
Yes, it’s much better to stop dating because you want to and not because nobody will date you lol. I know I’m just a sucker in general, right now. I don’t feel my intelligence like I have before. I don’t think I would be undateable if it weren’t for money being of utmost importance now. I’m struggling to say the least. Mental health has really destroyed much chance of building a normal life. I’m just going to try to live for the moment and see if I will be surprised about the future.
The US situation is bad but I feel like I’m also seeing it through my negative chaotic perspective, which makes it so much worse. I’ve felt some days of peace before and the US would barely cross my mind. That being said though I think we all should prepare for anything. This is from the guy who is always unprepared lol
I tend to overprepare in many situations and I don't really know how to prepare for what could happen. I mean, I have an idea of what I could do if it gets really bad and it's not too late, but it's kind of a drastic solution and might not be the best idea in the long run. I think we just have to stay aware and have things in order in case the worst happens. I'm limiting my spending to try to save money just in case I'll need it.
I don’t know what to do yet. I should’ve started preparing for this ten years ago but I was too busy dealing with mental health. I’m just going to learn to play the fiddle for when Rome burns. I’m tired of caring.
33 is still young. I went back to school in my late 20s/early 30s. And I lived with my parents. If they're willing to support you, get a degree in something that pays well. I'm about to be 40 and it's the best thing I ever did. Whenever you think you're too old just remember whatever you're doing now you'll be doing until you're basically 70. 33 doesn't feel so old then.
Thanks for sharing that. What did you get your degree in, if you don’t mind? 33 can be old, it depends on the person. Some people are 33 but all the stress makes them about 15 years older or more. I had huge stress lines on my forehead of like a 60 year old man. Thankfully they’re going away. Some moments I feel like I’m 95 and others I feel like I’m 25. Hopefully it will balance out eventually 🫠. Maybe I’m being a little dramatic too but this is a bad situation. You are right though, all is not completely lost. Still some things I can do. If I fail I can practice being homeless. Thank you
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