Hopeless today

[ckw1]

As so many of us struggle with this constant battle with depression and anxiety, you know how difficult and draining it can be to have to face the world every day. Some days are better than others, but today for me is not starting off that great. I was up for most of the night and at three in the morning I said forget it and just got up. I know that I have to keep fighting and keep moving forward but days like today make me want to just give up. I'm tired of the worry and the anxiety that is so constant and unrelenting. At times your own mind is your worst enemy and it feels like there is no escaping the torment of your own thoughts. All I'd like is a break from this constant battle and to have a little clarity in my mind, is that really asking for too much. We all know the coping mechanisms to deal with these feelings but sometimes it seems that our problems are much worse and nothing is going to provide relief.

[ResaLux]

I know how you feel. I have good days and bad days and they always seem to be in waves. I will have a whole week of good days and the a bad day will hit me and I can't shake it. Just keep pushing through. The good news is that nothing lasts forever. You just have to outlast the bad feeling. It will pass. Promise

[ckw1 in reply to ResaLux]

Yes that is true. On days like today the only thing that keeps me going is knowing that it won't last forever. Just trying to stay focused on the light at the end of the tunnel. Thank you.

[ckw1]

I don't know if you experience this or not but when you are going through a rough time do you have physical problems. I'm currently having severe headaches and muscle cramps in my neck and back. I also have stomach cramps and nausea. I feel like I'm on the verge of throwing up.

[ResaLux in reply to ckw1]

Yes! When my anxiety is really bad, it shows up physically too. I have headaches, nausea, I get dizzy and when It's really really bad my jaw will start to pop. It's just your body's way to dealing with the stress. The best way I can manage it is to keep telling myself that it's not a real thing. It's my mind and it will pass. Meditation helps if I can get my mind to calm down enough. You will get past it. Just keep telling your self that it's just your mind and you are ok and safe. The bad feelings will pass and you will get through this

[ckw1 in reply to ResaLux]

Thank you! I am feeling a little better now. After I was able to get away from work I came home and worked out and did some chores around the house. I'm not as anxious as I was earlier in the day and the physical problems have tapered off. I'm still anxious about not being able to sleep tonight and I worry that tomorrow will not be any better than today was. I really don't want to have to go through that again.

[ResaLux in reply to ckw1]

I know the feeling. You finally get to a place where you start to feel better but you are noe worried about how you might slip back into feeling bad! It's the worst! Working out and staying busy helps me too. Funny videos or shows help too. I am glad you are feeling better though 😁