I really need some help

[Wheredoigofromhere]

Hey guys,

Every day is getting harder and harder to stay afloat, I feel so tired and I don’t want to deal with it anymore. For a long time I’ve felt nothing, it’s hard to explain but I feel absolute emptiness within me, no emotion I have is beyond surface level. I feel like I’m fighting a losing battle here.

The other day my dad and I saw a car crash where someone died and we got to talking about it. We talked about how this persons whole world just ended, destroyed family members lives because of this accident but to us and everybody on that highway, it was just an inconvenience. This got me thinking, if I do go through with this plan, which I think about more and more as each day goes on, am I going to be just like that person who died in the crash? After all, the world keeps spinning even if I’m not there. So who’s to say that much like that person who passed, I too will be a fleeting thought, a small blip on the radar?

I don’t think I see a light at the end of my tunnel, I hope that someday I will be proven wrong, but my days feel numbered. I’m not sure if I want to go yet but it’s getting hard, I just need to go away and not look back.

Please help, I feel like I have no one to turn to and the only reason I’m still here is because I don’t want to hurt my mom, I’d hate to be the reason she cries

[tiggra]

Find someone to talk to about it so you cam cope and not feel hopeless. Not good to keep feelings bottled up.

[Franklin68]

Hey bud

Damn dude! That sounds awful! You ask for thoughts, so here is mine, just based on my own experience.

I was EXACTLY where you are. Exactly! Had tried different solutions to my horrible symptoms, but was basically toast.

I checked myself into a hospital and walked out a few days later basically symptoms free. I’m not saying everyone will get those results and maybe you even have gone that route, but what do you have to lose even if you have tried a hospital before

We just never know when that next effort to solve our symptoms will succeed.

My answers mostly came from my 15 years of being under medicated. They tweaked a couple things and definitely increase my dosage on a couple of meds, one quite substantially.

Please try something different. Let someone take care of you for a bit. Get you right

I no longer feel like you do now

Great luck friend

[gajh]

Hello and Welcome. You will find a lot of support here. You are not alone. I am glad you have joined us.

[Casivalentina]

I understand where you're coming from! I've been there. Before you do something irreversible, please reach out to a counselor. Call your suicide hotline if things get bad. There is definitely hope. Please don't give up on yourself. On life. I know it's hard when you only see the darkness. There is light. I promise you that!!