I'm Just Tired.

[Listless_Traveler]

Throughout my Mental Health journey (Chronic Depression), I have tried to stay motivated by telling myself that I just need hit certain milestones and things will get better. For instance, I just need to graduate from high school and things will get better. I just need to make friends and things will get better. Getting a job will make me feel better. Being in a relationship will make me feel better. Graduating from College and getting a "Real Job" will make me feel better.

But achieving these goals has not brought me any peace or joy and just leaves me disillusioned. I'm running out of things to stay motivated to work for. I dislike how unmotivated I am, but I feel like I'm running out of steam. Sorry, I don't even know if I have a point to this. I guess I'm just wondering if anyone else feels the same. Thanks for letting me vent.

[zeezou]

I am in the same boat. It's so sickening that I have everything I had ever wanted; good education, a stable job, supportive parents, a pet that I love to death, a roof over my head and what not but I am still not happy. And it is something that is never in our hands. This is why depression sucks. But you got this, buddy. Just try to tackle one thing at a time and try to stay above the water. You will be okay. 😊

[AdritaHalder in reply to zeezou]

I have a wonderful life too, but I am destroying it in my own hand.I can preventing me to do what needs to be happy

[zeezou in reply to AdritaHalder]

It's okay, at least you are aware of what the problem is. Just try not to be too hard on yourself and gradually, take yourself out from this mess. And you don't have to do it alone; don't shy away from asking for help.

[Franklin68]

curious - for me life didn’t return to what is was like before my symptoms ,until the depression was handled medically. That took a minute

How’s that part of your journey going?

If we can get that right, everything will be better.

Then your milestone will have greater meaning and joy

[Listless_Traveler in reply to Franklin68]

I'm kind of at a cross roads on that part of the journey as well. I have been in therapy for 7 years and on many types of medication. My doctors have been suggesting a clinical trial of Psilocybin, but I have been waiting for the people running these trials to get back to me. Hopefully, something will come from it. Thanks for checking in.

[Franklin68 in reply to Listless_Traveler]

I, for one, think it’s advantageous to share what your diagnosis exactly is and what you tried, dosages ,and how long; if you have that type of info. One thing I’ve learned to is journal all that. If you haven’t, go back in your memory and write down all you can and then get specific going forward

My solution ended up being a dosage change that 3? previous providers never dreamed of. Said journal will better enable you to see a possible pattern that needs to be adjusted. When it’s just swirling around in our brain, it’s very difficult to focus on some of those possible answers.

As I’m sure you know our providers need a lot of help with ideas and suggestions that their expertise and experience hasn’t come to answers yet. That’s why it’s so important to gather information from your research and other people, especially people on here who have so much knowledge to share. And love

Maybe there’s something you’ve tried, or you are trying that just needs to be tweaked before you go to a new medicine and a trial.

I don’t know, those are just my suggestions to think about

Praying for relief for ALL