I'm not sad anymore, just tired

[bipolarsunshine99]

Lately I wonder a lot if it's worth living with a illness that will always accompany me, cause sometimes I improve but it's temporary it's always temporary as if I couldn't stay healthy, as if life with manic depression and anxiety were an addiction

I'm fucked up, tired from this roller coaster, I just wanna turn off

[Llama00]

I relate to this so much.

[Homieshelphomies]

Life has many ups and downs... When you feel like turning off.. Try to do it in a self care type of way... I'm not sure how to explain... Take some me time and time off from the things that may even trigger your anxiety and depression... Talk to good friends and family members if you can... I'm positive there are people in your life that care about you and love you ❤️ I'm just a stranger and i care by just giving you a few sentences of advice..❤️ so just keep reaching out and thinking of ways to help lift yourself up you're on the right path so far ❤️🙏

[bipolarsunshine99 in reply to Homieshelphomies]

It's not that I neglect myself, in fact I often go to the psychiatrist, to therapy, I surround myself with people who love me, but even so I feel an emptiness, it is like being dead in life

I trust in your words, I know I will be fine again, but that's the point .. it's like a vicious circle that has no escape

[Homieshelphomies in reply to bipolarsunshine99]

Sounds like you're doing your best. A teacher once told me life is like connect the dots. She said we move on from one dot to the next to the next..each dot is the crappy hard parts of life but you just have to keep going and keep connecting the dots...the lines are the good times, the moments you have to enjoy and take in...sometimes I remember that and I'm like...oh yes that's why I have to just keep going...just gotta keep playing this connect the dots game.....

[bipolarsunshine99 in reply to Homieshelphomies]

thanks for your support, I rlly aprecciated ❤️

[Starrlight]

I hear you. It’s hard to stay healthy with all the stressors we deal with. I feel that too. I try to focus on the simple things...but even the good is tinged with danger with bipolar; that’s how I see it.

Today I am just trying to get through the day and if I see a rainbow or two fine great and this is a negative attitude but it will always turn back to the illness for me I believe. I think we should still allow time for healing, contemplating and have hope that something out of the ordinary and complex can happen.

I wish you the best dealing with your rollercoaster ride.

[Hidden]

I hear you. Although depression isn't my biggest issue anymore, I hear you.

Just remember that life is worth living, even with an illness.

You're not fucked up as you say. You're you! You are the best that you know how to be and that's what counts. It's a crazy world out there and we need to do what we can to live in it.

[kbrauer]

I am sorry that you are struggling so. - The one thing I learned to do every morning is; when I wake up ,the first thought I have trained myself to think is " I am Thankful for __________ today! " - I choose this day as I may. - ( I choose to start my day with a positive and grateful thought. Then that helps set the tone for how the rest of the day may go. - I hope this helps.

[Hidden]

I know someone with bipolar who worked hard at getting himself leveled off and has done all the things necessary to be as ok as possible. Yes he had bad days but he also has good ones that he can appreciate. we all have bad days, don't forget that! You are not alone!