I'm jinxing everything i touch

[No_Longer_Human]

Mom helped me with my chores and i still jinxed it. I had to only pick up the pottery and go home with the bus, buy meds and cleaning stuff, clean and have a shower and i jinxed it. Mom did the luggage, gifts, trash, and i still jinxed itIf i wasn't scared of mom calling me a drug addict, i could have her buy my meds and save the money and talking to this idiot (mom's a pharmacist)I'm trying, why isn't anything working. Idk if im very cursed or very traumatized/disabled but i swear I'm trying my best. And still failing. I hate myself. People in the bus were talking about going to work and i got a panic attack because the pharmacist was mean to me. Only to come back to home, trying to finish up for today and the vacuum cleaner is having a rebellion. I also sprayed for mold and created a biological weapon in the bathroom. I almost died but the mold didn't. I feel so bad for mom. I called her and she wasn't responding and i got worried. Turned out she was eating but it reminded me of grandma. I feel like a burden

[optimismrus]

It's not fair to feel awful after working so hard. But it's not fair to take it out on yourself either. Be your own BFF, and OWN your right to a great day! When I feel this bad I remember to tell myself "I'm not perfect, but parts of me are excellent". You so deserve to feel good! 🥰

[No_Longer_Human in reply to optimismrus]

Thank you. Needed to hear that

[Alpakka123]

Do you know the serenity prayer? I think it's a very clever prayer because it's so true.What makes you think you jinx everything you touch?

[No_Longer_Human in reply to Alpakka123]

I don't recall it. I will search it up. Because i always mess things up. In the supermarket when i broke a jar, needed help, got dissmisses, cried myself out. Now couldn't even start the vacuum cleaner

[Starrlight]

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