I can't breathe. Litterary and metaphorically. I can't get up of bed

[No_Longer_Human]

I slept all day for two days and then came alive at night. Really drained during the day, depressed, lazy, can't get up from bed, can't cvlean, can't eat, meanwhile manic at the night. I know it's not borderline because the episodes would take weeks not hours. My face is shivering and i can't breathe. Might be an allergy, might be the trauma. Getting flashbacks of my ex boyfriend, on 13th December was his birthday . And the birthday of the daughter of the lady who threw years if friendship through the window once i got mental because of my dad's kid. I went to her door, begging for help and she shut it. I have so much soup but it's from the weekend and i don't think it's a good idea to eat it. Honestly i feel like ive turned off eating. I just eat so i don't faint or when i get hyperactive. I get random icks from food. I can't breathe. I can't get up from bed. Bad things are happening only. I feel like im hexed. "Hope it gets better". Granpa got drunk, grandma sick, dad and sis are alientaing from me more and more. Im getting older and i can't work. My illness drains me. What if im cursed? I just hope nothing goes wrong again. I feel hexed. I went to the supermarket and broke a shelf, i sprained my leg, the toilet got broken, grandma got sck, grandpa go drunk.... My brain is lagging

[BeachynPeachy]

I am so sorry you are not well. I hope this passes quickly for you.

[No_Longer_Human in reply to BeachynPeachy]

Thanks. It's been 4 years

[Alpakka123]

Hi,

Instead of thinking about all the things that are going wrong, can you think about what is going right? What are things in this post that you can control, and what are things in this post that you cannot control?

Asking yourself these two questions might help.

[No_Longer_Human in reply to Alpakka123]

Thanks. I wasn't really thinking. My body just reacted. Subconscious. And besides buying Christmas gifts for mom and sis, i can't think of something i did right

[Alpakka123 in reply to No_Longer_Human]

My questions apply to life in general. Any time you have something happening in your life, you can ask yourself the following:

-is this something I can control?

-is this something that is outside of my control?

And then, instead of listing everything that's going wrong, think about the things that are going right.

[No_Longer_Human in reply to Alpakka123]

That's a good exercise. Thank you