Fear of Death

I’m scared for what happens after we’ve died. Or rather, I’m scared that this is my one chance, and that there isn’t anything after I’ve passed, I just stop existing. No more memories or experiences to make, I just stop, and nothing I have ever done matters. It really freaks me out. It almost pushes me to tears.

And then there are other times, when I wouldn’t care if it was to happen - today or tomorrow - I just kind of think to myself, “I really want to fucking die.” I just want for it to be over. I don’t want to have to deal with anything or anyone and I don’t have to learn how to exist.

It kind of reminds me of FOMO actually. It might not be that I actually want to keep living, I just don’t want to miss out on anything when I do die.

[LoveforAll41]

Happy Wednesday (here) PinkPotato. I am sorry for what you are going through... nobody knows for sure what comes next, no matter how firmly we believe something. Then we wouldn't have to believe. Anyway, I think that life has what meaning we give it. Is it not meaningful to give someone a hug? Go for a walk and lay your unique eyes on the world we live in? If that is not your cup of tea sitting on our butts and enjoying the creations that others have made that we can consume through video? I believe that doing stuff because it is fun has merit. YOLO as they say.

I am religious and firmly believe that I am going to have the same distorted beliefs that I have here, so I am left to work on them now. Sometimes I wish I believed death would end it.

Sorry, in a nutshell, why should there be anything wrong with being an average human? By the law of averages we have to be below average at things if we are above average at others. I am sure we have more deeper screwed up thoughts if these are the things we are worrying about. I love to recommend David Burns work in "Feeling Great" and the Feeling Good podcast. You have worth just as you are PinkPotato, you are already excellent at existing. And if you like you can work on having more peace doing it. I wish you the best in your journey ☮️

[CL3V3R-G1RL]

I'm sorry you are going through this but I get it. I'm the same way. Recently Ive been struggling with my health and have been thinking a lot about death.

I cried because I'm in my thirties and think I have done absolutely nothing with my life. "Wasted potential". I think with all the struggles I have been through, I just want this to stop. I may say to myself or put loud "I just want to die. Let it be over. Let me go in my sleep.". Of course I don't really mean it.

Truth is I want to live. What I really want is for the part of my that hurts to die so I can be free of it.

I also look at my life and yeah I may not have traveled to foreign countries, been wild in my twenties, everything I have done I did as a late bloomer. But I look at how many people I have helped. Who knows how many people I truly did help. I may have helped a stranger by just being kind. Or like here on this community by saying something that still sticks with this person and that helps them still.

It's not how you start, it's how you finish. It's not about the quantity of life, it's the quality of life.

Now I'm an agnostic. I don't know what happens in the after all this is over. I wouldn't worry it. As the saying goes "Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery but today is a gift. That's why it's called the present".

Sending love and hugs 🫂 ❤️