We have a member of family who is on his deathbed. My fear of death is so intense especially when someone close to me dies I get really scared for around year 😢 . It’s happened to me before I became obsessed with the thoughts of ‘we’re all going to die’
I get scared of sleeping in case I die in my sleep. There’s a lot more things I get frightened of.
Transport = might crash and die
Walking= someone might run me over
Sat at home= someones gonna rob and kill me
And so on and so on.
Another reason my anxiety is through the roof is because me and this poor individual who is passing away have got people in common that I don’t get on with (toxic and we had to cut them out of our lives) we have been estranged for a couple of years. I’m one of those people where disagreements, arguments and awkwardness etc is just a big trigger for me ! I’d rather hide and cry. I don’t want to face them but I’ll have to. I mean even the small disagreements people have on here trigger me and I have to disappear for a while and they have nothing to do with me. So I just dunno how I’ll deal with something that I am involved in! 😢
Sorry I’m rambling ☹️ I’m just so miserable and frightened. I haven’t gone to any of my classes this week 😢 so I’ll be behind and that’s making me anxious too.