Bipolar w schizophrenia that's been bad

[Pitalife]

Hi to all suffering w mental illness,I was just recently at the hospital er for my severe anxiety and bipolar I been having alot mania,I got treated like frap,ignored at best..I feel like there's no hope,I been having out control anxiety n my mania acting up,I go sometimes 3 4 days w out sleep,and no appetite, I lost my brother to suicide recently and 2 uncles killed themselves,I too think of death and dying too much,no enjoyment in life most the time,I had to put my dog to sleep that's been very hard,being in lonely house it feels now..I'm sole caregiver of my elderly mom and it's been very difficult to help her when I feel I can't help myself,anyone else deal w bipolar w mania? I get some days at a time i just nerd to lay down in dark tmroom n be left Till my mood hopefully levels out....I'm suffering and I just lost my counseling i been going too,some insurance glitch so thete saying...anyone I can use a friend who understands....God bless us who suffer..

[Vonus5591]

Top priority is mental health, plan to thinking about your day and getting rest. Eat well and give your full energy to your mental health and just focus on this. Learn to cope rather than subatoge your efforts. Emotions are very important and need to think through them. Respond kindly to yourself. Be the best to you.

Your mind deserves attention, give care to your mental health

Understand yourself deeply and give yourself a chance to react and cope.

Everything in life happens but you got to look after yourself

[Pitalife in reply to Vonus5591]

Too far down,I feel physically and mentally got,being caregiver of crippled mother is overwhelming n depression has got me beat..

[Gramas]

I’m sorry you’re feeling this way. This is a good place to come as we all understand being we’re all suffering in one way or another. I can just imagine what a tough situation you’re in with all the heart ache and tragedy you’ve had to deal with. Are you on medication? Its not the answer to everything but I certainly think it could be helpful for you. Let us know how you’re doing. We do care.

[Pitalife in reply to Gramas]

Yes,I'm having great difficulty just taken care of severely depressed mother,my brother taking his life really did her in w a failed leg surgery she's confined to wheelchair to bed n lazy boy chair..my backs up against the wall n I'm not getting proper mental health services just lost my counseling to a something w insurance,I really need the therapy.,plus i suffer w unmanaged chronic pain to make things even more dire....Thnx for your kindness

[Gramas]

Again, I’m sorry to hear all this. You definitely do have some challenges. Do you have someone come in to help you with your Mom? Take some of the pressure off.

Are you able to apply for Medicare? I’m not sure when the health insurance part would kick in but you can also apply for SSI (disability) which would give you benefits right away. That would certainly help with any mental and physical conditions you are suffering from if you could see the right doctors.

[Pitalife]

No one to help,$$ is running out and I been on 7 days week..no break in 10 yrs...

[shaynokb]

Hello Pitalife, my prayers are with you and the prayers of everyone here are with you. As far as I read, you have had a very difficult life so far, even if it is difficult, you have managed and this makes me admire you. You are stronger than many people I know. I say this from my heart. Bipolar and mania are bad, yes, I deal with them too. And I have never had the opportunity to receive therapy or treatment. Because of my family, I have actually acted in a theater for people all my life and I continue to do it. Life is gray for me and I feel like I am living in vain, but recently I realized that the feeling I feel is really real is ambition, I want to be the best in everything, I want to surpass everyone. Going back to you, if you take up hobbies you love, it really makes me break away from bipolar or focus on your emotions, listen to songs, draw pictures and remember, just because now is bad, the future will not be bad, you are strong, I know, take care of yourself.

[Pitalife in reply to shaynokb]

Thanks,I'm just worried cause I'm so burnt out,my mom gets sick alot,and it's alot w Drs tests,and moving her,I just been feeling very low energy n tuckered out..I try to stay strong...

[CatsandCheese]

You are amazingly strong. You are also NOT alone. Good people here who care and understand.

[kanzler1987]

I am here if you need someone to talk to, I don’t use this site to often. But we could talk on an app. If you want.

[Pitalife]

Thank you,it's been rough time trying to not feel overwhelmed but my anxiety n depression have gotten bad so hard on the psyche seeing them need the help,I'm just glad I could help her n pay her back as it is... lol...pita.....