Being a loner w bipolar and anxiety..

[Pitalife]

Does anyone else suffer w bipolar and extreme anxiety problems,? I'm 60 yrs old caring for sick elderly mom,I'm so withdrawn from people,I don't seem to want to mingle or be around people, thos has been going on my whole life, most my friends are dead and it seems hopeless in this post covid society to meet anyone I click w..I don't watch TV for a reason.i listen to music,I suffer w bad depression, I see guidance counselor and doctor...just wondering if anyone else feels like this...thnx for reading..pita..

[Barbloki]

Hi, I suffer from depression and anxiety and back in 2020/2021 I was taking care of my elderly mother in law. It was a lonely time because I was basically stuck with her 24/7. She had dementia and was also blind. A bad combination. She passed away in May 2021. I've been through a lot of losses and grief and trauma in the past 2 years and it hasn't been dealt with in my brain so I'm constantly anxious and depressed and lonely. I have a therapist and a psychiatrist and a primary care doctor. They are all working to try to fix me but I fear I am broken beyond repair. The only thing I have in my life that helps me is the senior center in town. There are daily activities and meals there and it gets me out of the house and around other people. I think it is literally saving my life. Do you have a senior center you could go to? Do you have anyone you could talk to? You could call the 988 number and they would talk to you. I had to call the emotional support line through my insurance company yesterday because I was struggling. The therapist was very helpful. It was just nice to have someone to talk to. This online group is great too except that it's not in real time so you may have to wait an hour or more for a response. I hope you start to feel better.

[Pitalife in reply to Barbloki]

I'm kinda stuck now, my mom's money's running out,( rent increase) and she can't take care her self,I had to move here 9yrs ago after I got the dreaded phone call,then my brother chose to kill himself,it's been very dark time,now she's suffering w fast recurrent uti,s..and gets very much like cognitive issues from it,and in and out of hospital s this has wore on me greatly .I fear i,ll be homeless as area I moved to and live has now gotten to be very popular rents are nuts and building everywhere,it's all gotten dire...I read your post it seems familiar,and it's very hard to say the least...I'm at wits end,I see my guidance counselor 1 x a week...

[Barbloki in reply to Pitalife]

It sounds like a rough situation that you are in. Can your mother's doctors give you any advice on resources to help you? Caregiver support? I hope you can find some help to deal with all you are dealing with. Keep posting here and let us know how you are doing.

[Pitalife in reply to Barbloki]

Hi barb,thnx for reply..yes it's very stressful, but I am in 3 caregiver groups,it helps as does this site, I'm praying for the best..I'm trying very hard and I have very difficult mother,not many can handle her..it's bri ging back alot childhood things up..pretty heavy...

[Craigliving4Jane]

hey bud

I’m bipolar, 67 years old, and have been a lifelong sufferer of depression, anxiety, ruminations, and low self-esteem.

I’ve been lucky throughout my life to have been reasonably successful at some things I’ve done, so that is helped me some. I’ve built twice a decent living for myself and lost at all, including two wives so I think I know a bit about your plight.

I pretty much have depression under control , but the anxiety was something I could never get a handle on no matter. As I’ve explained many times, and different situations on this amazing forum ,my only relief came from finding out that I was severely under medicated and got that changed at a the hospital when I went in pretty darn desperate..

My suggestion is keep trying to find some kind of relief for that bad depression something that will make it so where you can feel like you fit in out there .

I’m not saying it’s easy. I’m not saying it’s not exhausting or scary but what other choice do we really have if we wanna live a decent life?

Feel free to contact me directly if you want to try to see what you’ve done , what I’ve done , so we can compare notes and see if there’s something that maybe not you’re missing and myself to be prepared better prepare for anything that may happen in the future for me

much love

Craig

[Pitalife in reply to Craigliving4Jane]

Wow,life's really heavy,hope your doing better,I literally avoid contact w humans much as I can,it's sad but so is society,way I see it..