I miss mania. I do. Really very much...except for the bad desicions, the psychosis and the toss back down into hell.
So lately I have mood swings but maybe hypomania with deep depression occuring as it is not intense . They happen quickly back and forth much of most days like rapid cycling and i can still sleep and function. Not sure, maybe its my thoughts that are creating this although i was diagnosed with bipolar by four different doctors throughout the years.
I am most of all anxious w / panic attacks. I get irritable and i know mania can get that way; doesnt always feel great. But who wouldnt be irritable with high anxiety?
Im just trying to figure out whats going on with me.
Any ideas? How are others with bipolar experiencing it?