Autism

[Tracey0101]

I know some don't understand me what autism is like and I have very bad meltdowns because others don't understand why I am behaving in this way and they don't listen to me they don't believe me that they are causing my meltdowns because they are not understanding me. I feel like not belonging and accepted and they don't want to communicate with me to understand what autism is like and how I cannot control all my emotions because everything happening all at the same time and I have no control over my emotions and I can't stop the meltdowns because someone or something triggered me and it's starts again and I never had any help and support for my meltdowns at all I am now believe by my learning disability care coordinator and I am going to have psychology and see a psychiatrist for my emotions that I can deal with my meltdowns in a better way of dealing with them and I going to have help with my traumas as I have had traumas from my childhood and adult life as well all my life. I have mental illnesses too and physical illnesses as well I have suffered so much all my life. I felt that I was a bad person and nor good enough. But now it's a very different story I feel good enough and loved by lots of people who loves me and cares about me so much and I have a lovely young lad who doesn't live with me since 2020. I still see him in the school holidays which is so lovely to see him. We have funtime together.

[ziggypiggy]

I understand you. Controlling ones emotions can be extremely debilitating.