Questions and loneliness

[sad_watermelon]

Hi there! I don't know if you are following my story or not, but in brief, I had a relationship, which was a great relationship, and then the person turned bad, and I decided that we could end the relationship. He agreed but decided to stay friends, and then while we were friends, he decided to ignore me and kick me out of his life without saying a word.

And it's been a while, and I finally felt like I'm moving on. I had so many days spent without thinking about him, feeling great, and suddenly, I start dreaming about him. While I haven't even thought of him! And those dreams make me kind of sad and angry at the same time, and now I want answers. I want to know why he kicked me out of his life, because in my dreams, I see things that we had between us, and I see that he truly loved me. I don't know what I did wrong, and I want to know why he decided to stop loving me and turning against me, and then agreeing to be friends, but then kicking me out.

And I don't know what I should do. It's pathetic to text him after all he did. But in the same time, I really want to know why.

Also, I try meeting new people as many here suggested, but I feel nobody likes me. Not even in a friendly way. What if I am not worth loving? What if no body will ever love me? I can live without friends, but love is something else. Love combines friendship and something more. What if I never have this again? Or I get played again?

[Alpakka123]

Hi back!First off, you ARE worthy of being loved. If something happens, it doesn't mean that you aren't worthy of being loved.

Second of all, I understand your questions in regard to what happened very, very well. I am very glad that you are moving on. The dream you all of a sudden had is familiar to me. Your brain is trying to make sense out of what happened. I think I've mentioned before that if something doesn't make sense our brains go haywire trying to make sense of it.