I haven't been posting for a long time. I would like to update my "recovery my life has been a nightmare since last December when John decided to break up with me. To finish our engagement and our plans. I haven't recovered since then. I have barely known about him but what I've found out is here so happy doing his life.
Last couple of weeks I've been feeling very down trying to get any answers of what happened but then I realise it is pointless to go back to something that will never return.
I haven't stopped loving him, no matter how many months have passed or the pain he has caused me. I try not to think about it but again I cried today morning, my mom just hugged me and said I need to forget him, I know she is right but i still love him and think about him every day. At this time we would be married, and being happy.
I have gotten many point of views, advice, comments but I can't find that peace.
I'm focus on my job and family and friends. Today I've started thinking that someone probably said something to him and that is why he left me, or maybe he thinks I cheated on him, which is not true but I remember he mentioning it. Anyway
I just want to say I'm trying to keep doing my life and I feel lost. I'm never gonna recover from this I am just trying to live without him and his love