I am in need.

[Max_ii]

For the past few days I have been going through something that I'm not sure how to explain. I have been thinking and imagining my family's deaths for quite some time.

I am very close to my mother and all I could think about is our time together, but I'm worried, once she's gone, I'll be very lonely. She is the best mom I could ever ask for and I'm afraid that I'll never see her after death. Even now.

I don't know how to handle all this anxiety and stress.

I understand death and I'm not afraid of it because I know it's apart of life. Without death, what is life?

I'm worried that time will go by fast and I won't be able to make as much memories with my family.

Everyday when my mother goes to work, I'm thinking of all the possibilities of what could happen (including death or any harm done to her)

I don't know how to cope with my issues and I need help.

[Agora1]

Hi Max and Welcome to a caring support group.

I see you have Separation Anxiety in your bio. I don't know how old

you may be, but my foster dhild/then adopted daughter struggled with

separation anxiety every time had had to leave her for school etc.

She'd sit by the door waiting for me to come back and pick her up. Her

trauma I believe was because she was left in a crib to fend for herself during

her early years. Another cause could be when children lose loved ones close to

them. They then begin to fear every time their guardian or mother may be out

of sight. Professional help can be beneficial as it is a difficult fear to deal with

for both the parent and the child. I hope a therapist is able to help you through

these issues. xx

[designguy]

I agree with Agora and another thing you might find helpful is learning to live in the present moment and accept it for what it is. Learning and practicing simple mindfulness meditation helped me learn how to be more present in the moment and be able to bring my thoughts back into the present. You might also benefit from reading The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle.

[Max_ii in reply to designguy]

I appreciate both of your comments and helpful knowledge so much. I will definitely look into both the meditation and the book.I've explained my situation and issues with my mother and she suggested counseling and maybe joining a local church.

[designguy]

You're welcome, hope it helps. Counseling/therapy can be very beneficial and my advice about joining a church is to make sure it fits with what you think is true and real for you.