Going crazy

[Chocolatequeen1]

I’m trying Gabapentin to ease my sleeplessness but I feel teary in the mornings then volatile when it wears off. I think I will try to go off of it.

Summer has been so hard for me over the last few years. The days feel endlessly long and I feel depressed but a different kind than the dark winter months. I feel like such a burden and disappointment to my family. I keep thinking I should put a bullet in my head but I’ve been depressed for so many years that I know this feeling can pass.

[mizzou7016]

Might need either a dosage adjustment or another medication all together....I'm prescribed Trazodone for my sleep....you need to make sure that you give yourself enough time to "sleep it off"...the hangover effect can be crazy.....

[Chocolatequeen1 in reply to mizzou7016]

Thanks for your thoughts on the matter.

[mizzou7016 in reply to Chocolatequeen1]

I fight it all the time.....most of my depression and anxiety is pushed to the limit by sleep deprivation....but I'm not usually comfortable pushing the limit of taking my prescription med.....good luck

[Chocolatequeen1 in reply to mizzou7016]

Mine too but I feel like good sleep is a guilty pleasure. I feel awful about sleeping well when my husband is working all the time and when I still feel awful the next day. The med trials are wasting my life away.

[mizzou7016 in reply to Chocolatequeen1]

so maybe it's more than just a sleep thing....sounds to me like even though you feel like you are sleeping well....you're really not..you're doing the best you can....the rest will take care of itself....may i also suggest keeping a sleep journal....will help you an your doctor develop a plan/course of action

[Chocolatequeen1 in reply to mizzou7016]

That’s a good idea. Thanks for being a great listener.