Ex is going to the Netherlands next week. I'm stuck in what help i should get. I have dissosiated and headache

[Against_the_current]

Had headache, fell asleep, had nightmares about dad, woke up panicking, searched therapists and psychiatrists but i can't choose nor pay, texted my ex, he said he's going back to the Netherlands next week. Almost puked. Mom came home, stressed. I wonder whether to travel to see him for the last time but im absolutely destroyed. Since 11 days when i first found out, my head hurts, i want to puke, i cry all the time. Home is not a safe place, my accommodation is not a healthy place. I'm wondering where to seek help and what type of a therapist to get. And whether to go to my accommodation next week when mom's home because i doubt i can make it. Wondering whether to go to him. Wondering what therapist to choose- cbt or emdr, man or woman, to dig or to help me just function?. What psychiatrist - a one that knows me or new?

[SoporRose]

AtC,

I have nothing new I can think to tell you. But I send my support and hope you decide on your next step.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

I think he blocked me

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

That's hurtful, but probably for the best. He's baggage that needs to go.